2012: 16 of 366

I have been thinking about college all day. You can’t blame me. Everyone else in my classroom is doing the same thing. Well, at least most anyway. ‘Til now, I still don’t know what course I’m going to take. I’m still confused. I just like a lot of things and sometimes I hate myself for it. Sometimes I hate myself for being okay with just about anything. It doesn’t help me at all. Mom has been talking to me about it all day too. She’s asking me all these questions and I don’t know what to say most of the time. 

Am I really ready for this? Am I ready to live independently? Will I be able to cope with their standards? Will I be able to survive on my own in a place where a lot of things—dangerous things—can happen? 

I don’t know how else I’m going to express my frustration and confusion with myself in this entry so I’m just going to shut up. 

2012: 15 of 366

I didn’t really do much today. Aside from eating, all I did was face the screens of my computer and cellphone. I have a boring life. The only thing productive I did was probably to have started with my balagtasan piece and the shirt design I will be submitting tonight. Also, I neglected my uploading duties. 

Incidentally, Mom gave me some moolah today and I used it to buy myself a new iPhone case. I had a hard time choosing and I ended up with Speck. It’s not that bad, I guess. I’m planning to buy another one online, though. 

So, yeah. I have nothing else to add to this entry. 

2012: 14 of 366

I wasn’t able to post my 14th entry yesterday because when I arrived at home from the camping, I slept immediately. I was asleep from 3PM yesterday ‘til 7AM this morning. I think I still need more sleep though. Also, different parts of my body hurt. This is one thing I hate about camping. Para kang binugbog sa sobrang pagod at sakit na mararamdaman mo pagkatapos.

The games and contests were okay. The pageant was nice, too, since everyone really prepared for it. The only thing that sucked was the rain. It was raining from the time we set up our tents on Friday until the time we packed our bags to leave on Saturday. Some of the activities were harder to do and we weren’t able to light up the lanterns during our campfire. 

As usual, I didn’t sleep that much. After lights out, all we did was talk, talk, and did I mention talk? I didn’t do much of the talking, though. All I did was listen. A lot of gossips were shared that night. LOL.

Anyway, this year’s camping was fun although, I still think last year’s was better. Nevertheless, it was okay. We had a lot of laughs, adrenaline rush, and most importantly—food.

After the closing ceremony, I approached Ma’am Jocy, one of my favorite teachers in the world. Seeing her cry made me cry, too. She hugged me and told me that she’d really miss me when I leave for college. It made me think how I don’t want to leave high school yet. Sigh.

2012: 13 of 366

When you read this post, that means I’m in school and possibly either eating my dinner or participating in all those girl scout whatnots. Tonight we’re lighting the campfire and singing that ridiculous GSP campfire song. We will also have the Ms. GSP pageant and possibly some “surprise” challenges at midnight. Usually, they’re not scary at all. They just make me sweat to the bones ‘cause it’s usually so hot at the places where they take us when we’re blindfolded. The only fun thing about it is the part where you get to scare the hell out of your cowardly friends. 

So for now, that’s all I have to say. I’ll just probably update this entry when I get back on Saturday.